Auntie Molly

I had never taken a pregnancy test. And so I took two, just in case I somehow screwed up the whole peeing on the stick part. And both times a second faint pink line appeared.
I was pregnant.
It was so hard to keep this from you. Of course you would be one of the first to know, but I didn't want to share this huge, wonderful, life altering news over the phone or email. It had to be done in person. It had to be done right.
For almost three weeks, I held back, keeping the words at the tip of my tongue but never letting them spill over.
I wanted to share with you, spill my guts, and speak words that only two women as close as us would comprehend.
But I kept my secret until the weekend after your birthday.
And I haven't shut my mouth or stopped writing ever since.

These are the beautiful flowers you sent me. Pink Gerber Daises. My favorite. I wish they would have lived forever.